Wednesday, July 23, 2008

artsy jenne

i'm entering my first art show type thing since 1995. It's through the Quincy Art Association and the show is in September. I have a few things to enter already but want to finish this one that i have drawn out and still need to paint. it's something i've been planning to paint for Jenny Foronjy but have not had the time. now i am going to make that time. even if i decide it's not for the show, i am going to visit her in a few weeks so i can bring it to her.

No more wasting time. no more putting things off. many things on my plate, time to get them done. This is one of them.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

These are My Heart Songs, Part One.

i seem to enjoy blogging on most thursdays
but mostly in the live journal, which i am getting bored of.

i was rickrolled by weezer in thier tune 'Heartsongs' off the Red Album.
i love the song because it speaks of how songs can mean so much to you.
they mention all the songs that touch you wether it be happy times or sad
or even silly. they mention cheesey 80's tunes, metal rock that made them want to learn guitar,
songs that made you really FEEL, songs that inspired them to become the band they are now.

So i decided to write about some of mine, a few at a time so i don't get emo on y'all. well, more so than usual.

Electric Avenue by Eddy Grant reminds me of my brother and his buddies torturing me at my 16th birthday party. Bill wanted to be the DJ and we let him, but ONLY if he did not play that song! so he promised. of course, he ended up putting it on 5 or 6 times. i remember trying to grab the 45 and throw it in the little stream next to our yard. even though they still played it, most of the party guests enjoyed the song :)

Overkill by Men At Work was a favorite back in high school but years later the greatness of this song was remembered when i lived in Mt Pocono, PA. I used to go see a local band who covered this song and it brings back good memories of a rough part of my life. It was especially fun when the bass player would sing the high part at the end and the crowd would be rooting him so he could make the high notes. There are many "heart songs" associated with this time.

Such Great Heights by Iron and Wine (also covered by The Postal Service) was a song i loved right away. It became more special when i became Cassidy's Mom, and the first time i ever held he and looked in her eyes, the first lines of the song popped into my head - "I think that it's a sign that the freckles in our eyes are mirror images and when we kiss they're perfectly aligned." it became her lullaby every night for the first few months of her life. Michael and i were married when she was about 3 months old and at our reception she and i had a little dance to this song.

more to come....

Cassidy and Jenne, May 2008

Thursday, July 3, 2008

six months

"I fear that I'm ordinary, just like everyone
To lie here and die among the sorrows
Adrift among the days
For everything I ever said
And everything I've ever done
is gone and dead
As all things must surely have to end
And great lovers will one day have to part
I know that I am meant for this world

My life has been extraordinary
Blessed and cursed and won
Time heals but I'm forever broken
By and by the way...
Have you ever heard the wordsI'm singing in these songs?
It's for the girl I've loved all along
Can a taste of love be so wrong
As all things must surely have to end
And great lovers will one day have to part

I know that I am meant for this world

And in my mind as I was floating
Far above the clouds
Some children laughed I'd fall for certain
For thinking that I'd last forever
But I knew exactly where I was
And I knew the meaning of it all
And I knew the distance to the sun

And I knew the echo that is love

And I knew the secrets in your spires

And I knew the emptiness of youth

And I knew the solitude of heart
And I knew the murmurs of the soul
And the world is drawn into your hands
And the world is etched upon your heart
And the world so hard to understand
Is the world you can't live without
And I knew the silence of the world"

Bill passed away 6 months ago today.(6-17-08)

I would feel wrong if i did not make some sort of post.

These are the lyrics to his favorite song of all time.

they were written by another Billy.

Our sister Patrice sang this song with no accompaniment at his funeral.

She is also quite awesome.

I am doing ok. I want to stress that.

Even though i am sad does not mean i am not ok.

i feel good most of the time.

And i know i have some wonderful people in my life.
That helps SO much.

This song says so much more after losing Bill.

"Great lovers must some day have to part"

He and his wife Jenny were the greatest couple i had ever known - Two Babies Inc.

"My life has been extraordinary".

so true.

he was the peanut butter to my jelly.

my best friend.

my partner in crime.

I miss our silly language we made up when we were kids that we used into adulthood.
i miss calling each other with our awesome pop culture references.

i miss 'e-mayul' said like Homestar Runner.

i miss those huge hugs.

I heard this quote the other day and i really like it, so i'll end this with it.

"Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world,

which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime,

and falling into at night.

I miss you like hell"

-Edna St. Vincent Millay

Thank you for being there for me in the past 6 months.