Thursday, July 3, 2008

six months

"I fear that I'm ordinary, just like everyone
To lie here and die among the sorrows
Adrift among the days
For everything I ever said
And everything I've ever done
is gone and dead
As all things must surely have to end
And great lovers will one day have to part
I know that I am meant for this world

My life has been extraordinary
Blessed and cursed and won
Time heals but I'm forever broken
By and by the way...
Have you ever heard the wordsI'm singing in these songs?
It's for the girl I've loved all along
Can a taste of love be so wrong
As all things must surely have to end
And great lovers will one day have to part

I know that I am meant for this world

And in my mind as I was floating
Far above the clouds
Some children laughed I'd fall for certain
For thinking that I'd last forever
But I knew exactly where I was
And I knew the meaning of it all
And I knew the distance to the sun

And I knew the echo that is love

And I knew the secrets in your spires

And I knew the emptiness of youth

And I knew the solitude of heart
And I knew the murmurs of the soul
And the world is drawn into your hands
And the world is etched upon your heart
And the world so hard to understand
Is the world you can't live without
And I knew the silence of the world"

Bill passed away 6 months ago today.(6-17-08)

I would feel wrong if i did not make some sort of post.

These are the lyrics to his favorite song of all time.

they were written by another Billy.

Our sister Patrice sang this song with no accompaniment at his funeral.

She is also quite awesome.

I am doing ok. I want to stress that.

Even though i am sad does not mean i am not ok.

i feel good most of the time.

And i know i have some wonderful people in my life.
That helps SO much.

This song says so much more after losing Bill.

"Great lovers must some day have to part"

He and his wife Jenny were the greatest couple i had ever known - Two Babies Inc.

"My life has been extraordinary".

so true.

he was the peanut butter to my jelly.

my best friend.

my partner in crime.

I miss our silly language we made up when we were kids that we used into adulthood.
i miss calling each other with our awesome pop culture references.

i miss 'e-mayul' said like Homestar Runner.

i miss those huge hugs.

I heard this quote the other day and i really like it, so i'll end this with it.

"Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world,

which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime,

and falling into at night.

I miss you like hell"

-Edna St. Vincent Millay

Thank you for being there for me in the past 6 months.

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